Over-brewed Lament

I still remember the day

When my words plunged you

Into a momentary,still darkness..

I know it was momentary 

Because I am no bigger

Than a moment..or even less..

I remember how you lowered

Your big innocent eyes in sadness

And then a single, lonely tear

Rolled down your shiny cheek

It was not your fault, it was mine

And that tear should have rolled

On my selfish, inconsiderate cheek.

I could not make you smile

So I removed you from my life..

I threw away the letters

I stopped visiting places 

That would make me run into you

When you tried to reach me

I put myself into boxes within boxes

Of cold, distant vacuum.

One day you stopped reaching out

You found your wings, God bless them

And you had your share of eager boys

Fell down a few more times

And realized that it goes in circles..

Love and tears alike.

No one then was like I was once

In your pellucid, innocent eyes

And then one day we happened to meet

In a fruit market in the middle of nowhere

You were haggling for a dozen apples

And I was holding my wife's purse

I knew in an instant that it was you

With your skin, your eyes and your light

You turned around and your glance

Stayed over my face for a split second

In that moment I was hoping

You would freeze from a renewed grief

And the same lonely tear would graze 

Your cheek, now in full blossom.

But you walked past calling out

To the new man in your life..

And the whole market seemed to pause

When he held out his hand for you..

Had you not noticed me at all?

Had you forgotten everything?

I still remember going into great details

To keep all your letters unopened

So that I don't have to reply..

And the ever so recent conversation

With my best friend about how

What I did to you was only because

It was good for you..

And for all that effort 

I do not even get a single tear?

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